Return of the Insomniac

I need sleep.

I am not getting any.

I'm attempting to bore myself to sleep by writing nonsensical and/or incoherent information here.

I thought I had successfully overcome my long running insomnia. I don't know when it appeared again. But it has been around for some weeks now.

As I ramble on about not getting sleep (instead of switching off the lights, getting into the bed and actually trying to sleep), realization strikes - I have less than 4 hours left to catch up on my sleep before the despised doorbell starts ringing with the calls of the milkman, newspaper, housemaid and the cleaning lady as they start paying their daily visits. You might think I can ignore the doorbell and carry on sleeping - since anyone would probably ring a couple of times and leave. I wish! I've tried using that tactic a couple of times (very unsuccessfully) when I've felt the need for some extra hours of my therapeutic beauty sleep (or when I've spent the whole night awake again).

Out of these daily visitors, the housemaid seems to have consecrated the mornings to making sure we're all up (and very very grumpy). If you don't open the door within 2 rings of the doorbell; oh Good Lord, she bangs her fists on the door with incomprehensible draconian fury which has the capability to scare the living daylights out of a comatose person too!!! You can't help it! All you can do is jump out of the bed, run (to the door) for your life and let the woman in!

She makes as much noise as can possibly be made with whatever weapons are available to her - vessels, the broom, her very annoying vocal chords, and loud thumping of the floor with her feet with every step she takes while she walks around the house (I've got not clue how she's got so good at that!). If these indirect measures do not work well enough, she'll scream out our names to ask why a dish is lying where it is and even though it is very visibly dirty - are we sure we want it cleaned up?

(still not sleepy)

So after all this "hoo-haa" you expect the woman to be really detail oriented when it comes to cleaning up and go berserk if even a tiny spec of dust is visible anywhere in the house. Far cry from that!!! She's frustratingly bad!!!! She fails to see a Big Dark Brown Blotch on a Huge White Coffee Mug!

(Okay I'm beginning to sound very grumpy. Good Sign. But I still am not sleepy. :| )

Good thing the insomnia got me back to the blog though.

I think I'll make a move and try to get at least two hours of sleep.

Will be back! (soon)

Love,

Devil's own

Desultory Mentations

I'm spending a weekday at home after long. I mean a weekday where everyone else is working, and I'm not. Ofcourse there have been public holidays. I have a leave today since exams begin tomorrow. I really want to write - I know not what shall I write though.

The light is coming back to life. Have been spending more time with friends, being more open hearted now. I haven't been analysing everything that everyone says in too deep now. It's too stressful to do that. So have been taking things and people on their face value. Keeps you fresh and going.

I'm supposed to be neck deep in studying right now - but just can't concentrate. Heck.. okay, I'll probably do random things I feel like doing and then try to tie myself down with business management later.

The television is switched on and playing a popular bollywood song. I cannot hear it, since it's muted. But this song is familiar and that is why I recognize it. I wonder why, but I tend to do this often - leave the television and on mute - with random non sensical imagery on its screen. I don't want to unmute it, since I find it not too pleasing to hear.. need some calm. But I refuse to turn it off too. Whilst I am deeply engrossed in looking at the computer screen, reading, on phone, or just lying there. Why do I do this? I don't know. I wonder what sort of comfort it gives me to have multiple rays of light create images of people in colorful outfits jump and scream their guts out - screams I cannot hear... or choose not to.

I'll write later... I'm not thinking clearly right now.

Love,

Devil's Own

Bound and Tagged...

100 Questions...

1. Last drink: water

2. Last phone call : someone from kotak trying to sell insurance to me
3. Last text message: Last 2 days of Crossword Travel Fest. Special offer for all Book Reward members.
4. Last song you listened to: Aaj rapat jaye to humein na uthaiyyo, is playing on TV right now :D
5. Last time you cried: A week back... No I’m not a cry baby. It takes a lot to make me cry, and I NEVER ever cry in public. But you do break down at times, and it’s good to let out pressure building up inside

Have You Ever...

6. Dated someone twice: I have never “dated dated”..

7. Been cheated on? Yes.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Nope, you need to be in your senses always so you don’t have any regrets.
9. Lost someone special? yes
10. Been depressed? Yes, and been prescribed anti-depressants. Thankfully, snapped out of it without having to take any of those within days.
11. Been drunk and threw up? Never been drunk, but do intend to get drunk at least once in my lifetime. Wanna know what the fuss is all about.

Four Favourite Colors...

12. Black
13. Gold

14. The color of water. Yes I know it doesn’t have any, but to my eyes it has all the colors in the world and a beautiful looking substance
15. Green, Brown, Blue... ok yes i know i was supposed to write 4 colors, but it’s unfair to the other colors. I like all colors. And no permanent favourites other than black, but have momentary addictions to particular colors from time to time

Firsts...
16. Made new friends: Kindergarten. Ushma, Sudeepti, Abhijeet, Ninad
17. Fallen out of love: Oh yes.
18.Laughed until you cried: Everyday. For some reason I laugh way too much. Snap and I’d laugh
19. Met someone who changed you: This is a difficult one, I feel everyone we meet or see for even a remote instance affects us and the way we think. So I don’t think I have a specific answer to this question. I am what I am because of the life I’ve lived, the things I’ve seen and heard and felt and the people I’ve met.
20. Found out who your true friends were: I’m not sure... I don’t quite analyze and classify friends as true or untrue. All of us are humans, and we hang out with people we like to. There are times that we too fail to stand by someone through the thick and the thin. We need to understand that it’s ok if someone doesn’t stand by you. You need to stand by yourself and still not lose faith. Strong is stronger when alone.

21. Found out someone was talking about you: Oh always. It’s ok. You’ll talk about people, people will talk about you. It’s not always bad even though it’s annoying at times

Have You...

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: what friend list?
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: what friend list are we talking about?
24. How many kids do you want to have: Dozens! J
25. Do you have any pets: Not yet, but I do intend to have a St. Bernard a little later once I have the space and time
26. Do you want to change your name: It’s a pretty common name yes, but Nope
27. What did you do for your last birthday: Kicked the hell out of my roomie’s personal balti J. No I wasn’t drunk or demented... will probably write about it sometime. But my birthdays aren’t grand celebrations, and for some reasons turn out to be worse than regular days.
28. What time did you wake up today: 0720 hrs

29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Wading through the pages of the latest issue of Vogue
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: I’m an impatient person, so I can’t wait for anything. But uhmm.. I can’t wait for: a promotion, a car, a house of my own, a huge cute dog of my own, start travelling alone... quite a lot
31. Last time you saw your father: June 2007
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I’m what I am because of the way life’s been. It’s been tough in many patches, but that has taught me a lot and has made me a stronger and a better person. So I don’t want to change my life.
33. Most visited web page: Google devta

What's Your...
34. Name: eh? Nidhi – means treasure
35. Nicknames: I have a 5 letter name, that doesn’t really leave scope for nicknames.. but people call me Nidhu, Nidz, Nidhumal, Nidz, Mithi, Niki, Toofan Mail, Matki, Thinki

36. Zodiac sign: Taurus
37. Male or female or transgender: ???
38. Elementary: SSSVV
39. School: SSSVV

40. Colleges: IIPS DAVV, NMIMS
41.Hair color: Black
42. Long or short: Long
43. Height: 5’6”
44. Do you have a crush on someone? No
45. Ever been in love? Pass...
46. Piercings? Four in each ear
47. Tattoos? Not Yet
48. Righty or lefty: Right handed
49. First surgery: None
50. First piercing: Ear piercings when i was a baby. I don’t remember when
51. First best friend: Sudeepti/Ushma/Pinku
52. First sport you loved: Tennis. (I’m more into video games actually – Mario, Spartan, Galaxian, Lode Runner, Bomber Man, Tetris, Adventure Island, Mortal Kombat, Tekken, AOE et al)
53. First pet: A parrot called Mitthoo.. who we set free after less than a week since we did not want to keep a bird trapped in a tiny cage.
54. First vacation: Simla probably
55. First concert: Parikrama

56. First crush: Pass...

Right Now...
57. Eating: Nothing (I’m super hungry though)
58. Drinking: Nothing
59. I'm about to: Eat Soup
60. Listening to: The pressure cooker whistle
61. Waiting for: Nothing?

Your Future...
62. Want kids? By the DOZENS
63. Want to get married? Sure
64. Careers in mind? Certainly. A lot of things on this list – climb up the corporate ladder, write, edit, paint, travel..

Which is better with the opposite sex...??
65. Lips or eyes: I can’t choose one
66. Hugs or kisses: Both again.
67. Shorter or taller: Much taller preferably 6 feet’ish
68. Older or Younger: Older
69. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneously Romantic
70. Nice stomach or nice arms: Abs... Or stomach if you want to call it that. No GI Joes with humongous arms for me :p
71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
72. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
73. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hmmm... hesitant

Have you ever...??
73. Kissed a stranger: Nope
74. Lost glasses/contacts: Never wore any

75. Sex on first Date: Nope
76. Broken someone's heart: I hope not, but I might have. So if I have, it wasn’t intentional
77. Had your own heart broken: Heart broken? I don’t know... I like to call it been let down. Yes.
78. Been arrested: Nope
79. Turned someone down: Yes, quite a few

80. Cried when someone died: Yes
81. Liked a friend that is a girl? ?!?!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
82. Yourself: More than anything else
83. Miracles: Yes
84. God: Yes with all my heart. But, to me God is a power that surpasses all. God is not a creature, god does not have a form. I’m not religious, and you won’t see me folding my hands in front of an idol or image of lord everyday. Religious places make me feel peaceful because people believe they’ve come to visit god and the atmosphere is something. I don’t feel the need to be at a place or in a particular position to communicate with God.
85. Love at first sight: Only with a Bag/Dress/Pair of Shoes
86. Heaven: Heaven is where you want to be. If this means one of the two places you go to after you die, Nope.
87. Santa Claus: I would like to believe in him, but no i don’t.
88. Kiss on the first date? I don’t know, like I said.. I’ve never “dated” as such...
89. Angels: I believe in positive energy in/around people
90. Devils: I believe in negative energy in/around people

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
91. Is there one person you want to be with right now? I don't know..
92. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nope

93. Wanted to kill someone ever? Heheh, we all say – I want to kill that guy!!!! But, No - of course not.
94. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Whoever made this set of questions is obsessed with kissing, that might not be the only thing on everyone’s mind all the time no? Haha, no kissing please!

95. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Is there anyone who’s say no to this? We’re human, we make mistakes. Blunder is a synonym for a mistake.
96. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? Nope

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR...
97. White: A pretty salwar kameez a delighted customer gave to me J
98. Black: half my wardrobe
99. Red: Tee
100. Pink: Nightsuit

Posting this as 100 Truths? Yes. (Weird question)

Ok Karan, There you go. You did wake me up from my slumber, and I’ve completed the tag successfully

Love,

Devil’s Own

2008: The year gone past

Hello fellow bloggers and readers,

I have got myself a machine and access to Internet yet again... finally. :)
There's so much I have to talk about, there's so many things to be said... but i don't know why i feel at a loss of words. I hope i haven't lost my touch. I'm definitely rusty from the idleness, and i hope to recover from this writer's block very soon.

2008 - When we were children, we would think that by this year we'd be living in space age. I for one sure felt that way. But now that we've lived in it and have come even further, it doesn't really feel we're progressing as fast as we imagined.

The last year was very eventful... for the country, the world, and for me.

My first close experience with a terror attack (I was not in it, and was not personally affected by the attack, but knowing that it was happening around me, and watching television as it went on for more than 2 days, as we kept losing so many people to the terrorists as time went by was utterly disturbing. Not going to work because we don't know if there are any terrorists going around the city.. made me a different person in many ways), My first job switch, first recession - and the realization that there can arrive a situation where I'll lose my job, first transfer (within the city, and for better), first flat (no i did not buy one, just took up a rented one... that is a long way to go. Sigh!), first television (now this I did buy :D), First Fraud (that was a big shock), First Roomie fight (don't even get me started on that one), first housemaid hunt, first time that i paid Diwali bonus :D... So many firsts. Extreme highs and extreme lows. But if I look at my life at the end of this year as against in the beginning... it has only changed for better in every way and taught me the ways of life. So far, this has been the most significant year of my life.

I look forward to a good year ahead for each one of us, and to be back in blogosphere.

Regards,
Devil's Own