When I was 12

Here I'm writing a few out of the poems (if i can call them that) which I nhad written when I was 12. They sound imature, and the language is a bit too simple, but hey, I was only 12, and these are very dear and special to me. Each single one has a significance to me.


Here I'm sitting was the first one I wrote, so this one's the most dear to me.


HERE I'M SITTING

Here I'm sitting
Watching everybody emptying the comtents of their hearts into their friends'
I'm sitting here lonely
with no one to talk to
Feeling even more painful than being poked with innumerable needles
Here I'm sitting
Wishing for creatures from other worlds to come
and take me with them
Far away from these earthlings
I'm living in a world full of selfish, cruel and shrewd people
They'd never care about people who are alone
They're all busy with themselves
What one needs to survive in this world
is a true - true friend
Just like the one who comes in my dreams every night
And my thoughts, every moment
Here I'm sitting
Waiting for a friend to come, with who
I can share each and every moment of my life
Here I'm sitting
Now having no hope of finding the friend of my dreams
But, I was, I am and I will be waiting for him forever and ever

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I KNOW, But Still.....

I know we had a big big fight
But let's still be friends forever
You don't want me to show you my face
But let's still be friends forever
You don't find anything good in me
But let's still be friends forever
You think that I'm the world's biggest moron
But let's still be friends forever
You think that I'm immature
But let's still be friends forever
You think I don't know how to sing
But let's still be friends forever
You cannot stand the sight of me
But let's still be friends forever
You think I don't understand your feelings
But let's still be friends forever
You wish that I should disappear
But let's still be friends forever
You think I don't care about you
But let's still be friends forever
I can't survive without you
So please be my friend forever

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THEY SAY

They say they know me well
But do they know my pain?
They think that I'm stupid
'coz I keep laughing for no reason at all
Do they see the tears behind?
They say that I am stubborn
That I must learn to compromise
Was I born this way?
It's me who's an imbecile
That I want people to understand me
Do I tel them all nI want them to know?
You don't care for him
what wrong has he dont to you?
He wants to push me away
What have I done to deserve this?
No one cares how I feel.
Sometimes I doubt my existence.
People wish for peace in the world
And I'm waiting for a war; a big disastrous war
Then I'll escape
So that people can no more torment me
But all I can do is Wait Wait and Wait
Wishing for my dreams to come true
Someday, Somewhere...

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WHAT?

I don't know
Whether it's diamond or gold
Or of emotions,
That can't ever be told
Is our relationship made
of countless smiles,
of projects and files
talking and sharing
our thoughts and comparing
our lives and those
of the rich and famous
of the known and the anonymous
Making silly songs
and calling peoply by crazy names
Writing poems senseless and long
And playing dumb games
We don't care about presents
Love and faith are the essence
Living each day together
and hoping that this friendship lasts forever

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(This one doesn't have a title)

My affection for him is never ending
Though, I know I don't count for him
My heart is filled with sorrow when he's in pain,
My excitement knows no bounds when he's happy
I miss his usual self
I expect him to get back his happy-go-lucky attitude
But still I don't
I pray to God for him to have bliss
He deserves all the happiness that eternity can hold
He's the nicest person to be with
But people don't figure that out
He has misplaced his usual self
Somewhere in the eccentricities of life
I care too much to let him suffer
But ther isn't much I can do
All I can do is stand by him
and assure him, that the greyest day,
is brighter than it seems
I have a light of hope in my heart
That someday,
Happiness will sprinkle over him, like rains
Let's wait.... Let's Wait....

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